Friday, August 04, 2006

In The Arms of Your Significant Being: Rider

Rider reminded me of no one I've never met.

I had no one in my thin, nozzled life whom compared to Rider. It's been a year since Rider drove into my life. How Rider appeared deserves a chapter on it's own. Futhermore, the highs and lows which Rider affected deserves yet a few chapters.

But this chapter isn't really about Rider and it's about something different. It's about how I finally met someone at this stage in my life where I believe I've found a real friend. It's my first in quite some time. We had a conversation recently where in describing to Rider whom Rider represented, I was able to articulate quite easily. That's no small feat as it's a well know fact that the Gods of Articulation and I are no steadfast pals. In fact, I prescribe to the Anti-Articulation League of Frustrated Enunciators. Witness the 250 words thus far in this entry to get to this point.

I've heard from time to time that there will be one great love in your life. Similarly, luck you'll have a handful of close friends. I'm not sure I prescribe to this romantic notion of exclusivity. In your life, you will have numerous loves. True, only a few may take the form of flesh and blood, but is it not the case where love can also take the form of non-carbon objects? As for friends, I may have to succumb to the theory of handfuls. There are those who seek my friendship and those whom I've sought. And of course, numerous individuals whom I've neglected. And Rider, for some reason keeps me in touch with that fact--the fact that as my own best friend, I've often neglected myself. It's why I cherish the time where I visit with myself. I check in with myself, and inquire how I'm doing.

Yeah, it sounds borderline clinical redzone, but I can't wait to get home to cocoon in the company of myself.

Take a seat on the patio.

Flip the movie on.

Pour the redness.

Wallow.

Rejoice.

Tucked away in my small corner of the Universe, in the arms of my very own significant being.

Maboroshi no Hikari

Ima hitazumi ni omotte iruno desu--kagayaku hikari wa naze minikui no desho? Meno mae ga mienaku naru hodo okarui. Sorewa shiyawase nano desho ka? Sore tomo kurasa no nakade ikiteiru uchi ni hikari no sekai wo motemeru kokoro ga jitus wa ikirukachi nano desho ka?

Boku wa sonna hikari ga daikirai desu. Naze anna attami ga aru, utsuku shii mono ga kiete shi ma wa nake re ba ikenai no desho. Ya ha ri maboroshi nano desu ne.

Yattsu no egao kara hitotsu sae
Sore wo sagashi nami ni deru.
Sasoware anomichi wo kudari
Natsu no koe wo mata mitsuke,
Kokoro ochitsuke aki no kumo.